We all have something we’re addicted to or have been addicted to before. Just so we’re on the same page, let me explain what I mean by addiction; it’s anything that defeats your self-control. Anything you do whether or not you want to. Addictions are no respecters of religious status. Pastors are probably the most addicted to pornography. No kidding, I’m not sure if it was a Kenneth Hagee sermon, but he was talking about how a certain plush hotel reported the highest viewing of paid pornographic content during a major pastoral conference.
So no one is exempt from addictions merely because of his or her theological qualifications. People aren’t as righteous as you think o, that’s why your faith shouldn’t stem from a man you deeply respect; you’ll discover a shameful addiction or scandal he’s embroiled in and suddenly your whole faith will be shaken and compromised. Everyone’s eyes should be fixed on God, not any intermediary.
A major stupid consolation addicts give is ‘Even Paul said the thing he wished to do, he didn’t do, it’s rather the things he doesn’t wish to do that he does.’ Or ‘the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.’ So it’s not so big a deal if I succumb to my weakness, after all isn’t it in my weakness that His strength is made perfect? Let me fool around and give grace the opportunity to work. My broda, there is a difference between weakness and addiction. Not all weaknesses are sinful, but every addiction is. For example you have a weakness with fasting and praying, it just doesn’t come easy (if at all) to you…now that’s not the twin brother of having a sexual weakness where you have to sleep with different people to feel ok. My sister that’s not the thing Paul was talking about oo, don’t try to ‘pri draw’.
An addiction is a sinful weakness, it forces you to make a god of things, replacing God as numero uno in your life. The worst kinds deprave your body (which is the temple of the Holy Spirit). Don’t cling to any half truths to make it like it’s normal. Like Peter lied and denied Jesus but he got post, David chopped someone’s wife and he’s a legend…don’t dwell on any thought that numbs your conscience and makes you accept the thing that treats you like its ummm….hmm (asem oo), treats you like its…female dog. Yes, female dog, let’s take it like that. The first step to dealing with any addiction is coming to the point where you decide “It’s not ok, I hate this thing, I wanna stop!”
Ok, so now that we’ve gotten that out of the way, let me tell you the reason for your addiction. I have the audacity to do so because after years of being in its grip and -by God’s grace- being free now, it’s all so clear to me.
The most miserable person is someone who loves God and is addicted to something stupid. If you’re atheist or some irreverent person, lust, drugs, body mutilation, kleptomania, masturbation, homosexuality, lying, etc are like fruit juice; cool aah. You can sleep with your wife in Accra then go to Kumasi and celebrate Christmas with your other wife and kids there who know nothing of another family, and you sleep soundly, then you you don’t have a problem. Congrats. The ones who suffer are those who feel miserable after doing something they know and wish they shouldn’t have done and somehow know that tomorrow by this time, they’ll be in the same situation…asking for forgiveness for the same thing. It’s so so draining!
Every time you’re having your quiet time it’s “Father, hmmm…it’s me again o.” You know Psalm 51 like the back of your hand. All your spiritual energy is spent trying to move on from the last time, which lasts only until your next relapse. So you’re stuck in this continuum of deed, guilt, repentance, determination, relapse, deed, guilt, etc. It’s hell!
But do you know why? T.D Jakes said “It’s not your kids the devil really wants, heck even you don’t want them sometimes, it’s not your job; the devil’s not looking for employment. it’s your mind.” Now let me show you what I just saw; For as long as you remain addicted, you are limited in how much confidence and privilege you have as a Christian. You have a limited understanding of your identity as a Christian, you have no time to study to show yourself approved, no time to have the eyes of your understanding open, no moral right to build a decent relationship with God, no time to discover the truths that put the devil and all kinds of attacks/attackers under your feet BECAUSE YOU’RE SO DAMN BUSY PRAYING FOR FORGIVENESS!! You spend your whole life in guilt, feeling dirty and unworthy, always hoping that you haven’t gotten to the point where the wages of your sin will be served, afraid that you’ll share Samson’s fate where the Lord had left him and he knew it not, you’re so so stuck in that rut, that you’re at best a spiritual midget.
Your addiction exists to stunt your spiritual growth. This limitation confuses you about success so that you only see it in monetary terms and call yourself successful when all you have is money! Let’s crave Him, pray Him to become our obsession, yield to Him, allow Him to take over, let His light drive out all darkness…and then, we’ll behold glory like we never imagined! Your addiction is too expensive, it’s a luxury
cant shouldn’t afford.
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