Do You Want This or Nah?

You’re called to have big dreams. Your imagination is supposed to run wild. There isn’t anything you can imagine that cannot be done if God willed it.

However…

We cannot compare our dreams to that of others. Maybe you are praying for all four years of your university tuition to be paid for, room and board as well, textbooks included, plus even a little extra dough for some entertainment. You also have to be a cool kid. You have been praying fervently and waiting patiently. Then someone who has had a similar prayer comes by one day and tells you they just had their tuition for the upcoming semester paid. Yet here you are, still praying and waiting with nothing to show for it. How annoying is that?

When we play the comparison game, what we fail to realise sometimes is two things 1) how long that person may have been doing the same praying and waiting that you were, and 2) how different their request was from yours.

You were over here praying for four years worth of money, and they were expecting a semester’s worth. Let’s be analytical for a second, it would make sense that their request came shabo shabo or? Not that that’s the way things work, but we have to understand that the big requests take time. Not because they have to, but because we need to prepare. We need to understand the responsibilities of such a large desire. We say we want it, but are we really ready to handle it?

You’ve never really had money, but you believe you’re ready to handle a lump sum of four years worth of tuition? You want to be a manager, but can you really handle the burden of your subordinate’s responsibilities? Do we really really, sure banker want it?

I have been there, in that situation where I am praying for something that I want and I say I believe it will happen. I think my heart believes, but truly, there’s a part of me that says, is that even possible? That’s usually when I know I don’t believe enough. If I am not ready, nobody is going to come and hand me my request in my unprepared state. I could pray from now till thy kingdom come and nothing will change.

I have learned in that state, I only half want whatever I am praying for. Which isn’t to say that my prayers are any less sincere or powerful. It’s just sometimes I think, this is too complex, God. Maybe I should alter it a little for you. Thennnn we can talk.

We cannot half-want half-not-want things, for whatever reason. “I am praying about this, but I don’t truly believe it’s possible because there are just too many variables.”

If you truly want something, and you’re praying for it, there can’t be that doubt. The moment it rears it’s head, tell it to shift. Tell it you’re on a mission and it is not welcome. Because the moment you welcome it, you now don’t want it as badly as you think.

Sometimes it takes time. And when it does we either like to think we know more than God and act for Him or we settle. I mean, I really wanted my four years of tuition paid, but you know what, God if you can’t do that, I will take next semester. I mean, Kofi got his next semester paid so pay mine too, because four years is too big.

For THE God? The Creator of the Universe? The one who chose to create in six days and nonchalantly rest on the seventh? When he could have easily done it in a nanosecond. That’s the God we’re both referring to, no? Come on.

Do you want this or nah? Because if you want it, you have to carry everything that comes along with it. That includes the amount of time it’s going to take to adequately prepare you to effectively use whatever your desire is. To make the most of it. You are not praying for great things, just so when they arrive you cannot handle them. You have to want the time it takes to prepare yourself too.

It’s like seeing the very fit, buff people and thinking oh my goodness, I want a fit, buff body. But, hold up, I don’t want months of eating properly and going to the gym. Or I want a job that pays me x amount of money with plenty zeros, but I don’t want to work late nights. Late nights for who?

That same way, we have to want, without a shadow of a doubt, the seemingly crazy things we are praying for. The things that look like they only happen in fiction books and the imaginations of trippy people. The things that we think are too convoluted for God. They haven’t happened yet because we don’t truly believe He’s capable, and not because He’s not listening. And if we don’t really believe He’s capable, do we really want it?

Don’t settle simply because someone else’s request was answered before yours. Theirs wasn’t as big. Theirs didn’t require this much preparation. Your request isn’t too complex for God, it just requires time for you to be ready.

Want it. Want your legitimate desires so much it scares you. The kind of desire that makes your brain say “that cannot happen”, so your heart can tell it “why don’t you watch and see”.

And when it happens, come and tell me all about it.

 

 

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11 Comments

  1. Jijor said:

    This is just the post for me. I am at a stage where waiting is just ‘hard’… But, thank you for the words…
    They spoke to me.

    June 11, 2016
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    • Ewuraesi said:

      I know the feeling, Jijor.
      It’ll be worth it.

      Thank you for sharing.

      June 12, 2016
      Reply
  2. Emefa said:

    This God knows us so well…a word in season for me.God bless u Ewuresi.At a point i was so certain you and God talked about the current me.

    June 10, 2016
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    • Ewuraesi said:

      This warms my heart, Emefa.

      God grant all your hearts desires. Even that big one 🙂

      June 11, 2016
      Reply
  3. Idan said:

    I needed this. Thanks Benjy. Will call you soon.

    June 8, 2016
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    • Ewuraesi said:

      Benjy says you’re welcome.

      And he will pick up your call 🙂

      June 9, 2016
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    • BenJ said:

      Still waiting for the call Efua, and this was all Ewuraesi….you ‘E’ people are definitely special arent you? 🙂

      June 10, 2016
      Reply
  4. Akofa said:

    😊 😊 😊 True. Sometimes (or should I say, most of the time) we are simply impatient.
    God bless you for sharing.

    June 8, 2016
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    • Ewuraesi said:

      Haha. Sometimes, sometimes. Because sometimes it comes quickly.

      June 9, 2016
      Reply
  5. Abena said:

    Thanks for the reminder… Sometimes praying for so long and not seeing anything can be disheartening… Nevertheless, we won’t give up.
    Thanks! I would tell you all about when it happens 😊

    June 8, 2016
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    • Ewuraesi said:

      We can’t give up!

      I would love to hear all about it.

      June 9, 2016
      Reply

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