The funniest thing happened the other day; I was convinced to get a funeral policy for my mum. The insurance lady was very good. In exchange for a token amount each month, I’d get a case-load of cash in the very unlikely (though inevitable) case that mum passed. She steered me clear from the emotional dread that makes us shut the thought of death out completely. As if by doing that it’d never ever knock on our doors. She asked if I’d like to get a case load of cash to ease the pressure such an inevitable tragedy will bring. I said sure! And for the heck of it, I got one for myself.
So I’m hanging out with mum some days later and I tell her with the same pride and smirks that I’ll have employed if I was giving her a new phone. Then before she could say a word, I added “I even got one for myself po.”
She smiles and says to me in Ga “Is that to make me feel better, so that it wont look like you want me to die?” I rolled on the floor laughing. The way she said it though!
What else is certain?
But the way death is inevitable is the same way certain privileges are inevitable for those who love God. Like being the head and not the tail, like all things working together for our good, like having at my disposal the same power that brought Jesus back to life, like running through troops and leaping over walls, like our God-given talent bringing us before kings, like being a joint heir with the creator of all wealth, like having the exact identity of the one whose name brings EVERYTHING down to its knees. Aaalll those –and countless more- are as certain as the inevitability of aging and dying. It’s a matter of our ATTITUDE to it, or if you like, faith.
Now, I’ve been in situations where it made no sense to hope. Where getting what I was praying for would defy every bit of logic and intellectual capability I possess. I’ve gotten things I cant talk about because I’ll seem weird if I was honest about who dunnit. But it’s all because my intelligence and analytical ability and IQ –despite being darn impressive (excuse my modesty)- wasn’t getting me where I wanted to get to, out of what I wanted to leave fast enough! So a main part of me trusting in God was from the frustration of where my skill-set and intelligence couldn’t get me.
I looked at the life of people much smarter than me, much more experienced than me, much better looking than me, much more connected than me and much older than me. I looked at their wealth and impact and marriages and earnings and fulfillment and I knew I wanted more. If I had to kill myself as much as they did with all they had (which’s more than mine) to get to where they are, I still wouldn’t be satisfied!
The smartest move
So when I discovered ‘My grace is sufficient for you’ and “He’s able to do more than you can ever think or imagine’ and ‘He holds the hearts of kings in his hands’ and ‘He gives the power to make wealth and the power to spend it’ and ‘Unless the Lord builds a house, they labor in vain, who build it’ I said Holy Smokes! There’s an easier, better option. So in a rare occurrence my logic gave me another reason to take God more seriously.
Now as I work hard to be my best, I trust Him to amplify my efforts. I’ve resigned every fear and anxiety, every distrust and doubt to him. I have integrated His integrity into my dreams, so he has a lot on the line if he slacks. Lol.
But really, all this is stupid. It makes no sense. It’s illogical and utter rubbish and a seeming setup for disappointment. But that’s okay; too many stupid people have done same and landed where I dream of for me to care, really. Besides I’ve realized that when a billionaire speaks, even his stupidity sounds profound. You don’t believe me? Ask any Zimbabwean government official if Mugabe fell last month. Ask them! They’ll tell you he was taking a stride known only to the most powerful. Money makes absurdities profound, so it’s okay to sound absurd….for some time 😉
But the way it works is, you need to invest more into your relationship with Him to enable you exercise your freedom to be stupid. So for what it’s worth I release you to be stupid. Believe stupid, dream stupid, pray stupid, hope stupid, love stupid, live stupid…because he uses the stupid things of this world to confound the wise. China’s richest man’s favorite movie is Forrest Gump. Yes, the founder of Alibaba the $200,bn empire loves most the movie about a stupid guy continuously shocking the world with his successes because he connects with the story. And you say whaat? Ok, be there eh. Wise guy (smirk)
I believe I’m insulated and protected and insured and brokered and covered and spoken for and recommended by and provided for and powered by the blood that speaks better things than the blood of Abel. That makes me see possibility in the ‘unattainable’. It makes me so convinced, you could easily worry about my seemingly inevitable disappointment. That blood makes me act stupid. But like I said, this kind of stupidity confounds the wise. I like this kind of stupidity. It’s beautiful stupidity. Who wants to be stupid with me?
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